On the anniversary of my wife’s transition, I want to share what my guides and I talked about the day before (aka yesterday). To give some context, I was awakened in the early hours yesterday by a voice calling out my name. It wasn’t my wife’s voice or a voice of an unknown, but my voice. My inner voice, I believe, the one I carry around with me across this great universal expanse. It was “loud” enough for me to respond with a “What?” out loud as if I were acknowledging that I’d heard someone in my room or home.
But it was me. I am quite certain it was me calling to me. This had never happened before and I think it happened when it did because this was the date a year ago that Che died, moved on, transitioned, left her body. Actually, it was a Tuesday last year, so I guess the timing was even more precise! It’s been a year since I said a corporeal goodbye and have had many profound moments of myself. It’s all been such a new experience.
Wait a minute, it is always a new experience! Change is the pivot point of our existence.
The voice that awakened me was followed later by another call out to me but in yet another voice. I don’t know if that was also me or someone else. But with two calls in a few hours, I had it in my thoughts when I arose yesterday and decided to ask my guides for a bit of guidance about what it was all about. This is their response. Oh, I should add that in the four or so days coming up to this point, I’d been coping [not so much] in my habitual way of eating and drinking to numb feelings and then judging myself because of it. Who needs Judge Judy when we’ve got Judge Me inside? Ok, so here are my questions to them and their responses. I share this because any of you reading it may see yourselves in some part of it.
Dear Ones, Loving Souls All Around, what can you share with me that would help me understand why and what was/is going on with me hearing my (current) name being called? By my own voice?
That was to get your attention. Why? Because you have been too outwardly focused. To love others, love yourself. Yes, getting your home the way you want it is a way to care for and love yourself but you are going at a frenetic pace! You chose this time period to slow down, to write, to create art, to do any number of things. Yes, to paint your rooms, to arrange things is an act of creation but you are now about to step onto a part of your path that takes you to what you would call the “next level” even though it has been you, inside you, all along.
When we say inside you, we are referring to the whole you, of which you have only witnessed or glimpsed a tiny fraction. You are still holding back from yourself. You still seek outside approval of your creativity. We want to say STOP THAT! Not to chastise you but to speak in terms you have heard and understand from your human side. You have been in frenetic energies and part of it is – yes, as you’ve assumed – the grief, which we will call it for your understanding.
To us, it is grasping at a moment that does not exist for you. It is in the Akash [Akashic Records] but not as a memory, only as a moment and it is there for you to retrieve in some point, but to hang on to it, to cling to it, keeps you small and we want you to see how BIG you are! How expansive your love is! How beautiful this love for yourself can be. You see and feel a fraction of what you can feel for yourself. We want you to focus on the love for you BY you.
It is your “contribution” to the Whole. Your LOVE enriches and gives light to all. To All That Is. You came to this experience, this focused point, in order to break away from that which keeps you from loving fully. In the “position” you are in right now, taking this “time” to experience loving yourself is crucial. So important for you as a soul learning, but for ALL. We cannot emphasize this enough. All the love in you pours out love energy. We know our words or the translations seem so cliche, but they are what we [me, the guides] have together to put on paper.
Love is all there is. Believe it about yourself. Love is all there is!
This means you cannot judge yourself. No matter that you did something yesterday that you judge yourself for. You must let that go and return to love. Return to loving you in all your “You-ness”. Youness. No judgement about you by you. Let that go. Sure, listen to your body, hear it saying that good fuel makes it feel good but for those times when your ego uses your body’s needs against you, do not judge. Go a different way if you can. If you “give in” as you called these past four days, then FORGIVE yourself. It is all the past. None of it now exists.
The emotion of it lingers but it is a shadow of your mind, not real. As are all your memories. The emotions get recorded but the events have no bearing. So if you are judgemental and then feel ashamed, that goes into the Akash. If you forgive yourself and feel love toward you, that goes into the Akash.
If you were to visit the Akashic Library, would you rather go to the section that makes you feel “bad” about yourself or the one that delights in the you that you are? There, in the Library is all the love you have created. It is in the well-lit, warm, inviting wing of the Akashic Library that is dedicated to you. Yes, at one end is the “judgement” section that contains the records of shame, guilt, self-judgement, self-hatred. It is dark and cold there. It needs to be there because it is part of your experience. In fact, you could do nothing to remove or destroy it.
Where would you rather sit? In the LOVE section or the judgement section of your Akashic Library wing? You choose. You choose in every moment you are currently focused upon as well as all the other lives you are living but aren’t focused upon. You influence each of those lives, you make choices in each of those lives. You can choose to focus here and now on love, and that energy gets to go to all your lives!
Isn’t that incredible? We think so. Not just other Earthly lives, but all of who you are as a unique consciousness of the One Consciousness, the Universe, and all. And you are giving love generated by you but also love given to you that you choose to give back or share with others. Energy is never created nor destroyed, it only CHANGES. It only changes – your scientists have uncovered a fundamental truth of the Universe – it always was, is, and will be. Just as you will always be, always were, and are. How glorious!
You should hear the angels singing because it brings them joy. They also feel the joy generated in your heart as you contemplate all that this means. You may not process it all at once but it is now “out there” with you in your focused attention, your consciousness. Truly amazing. Stupendous! Outstanding! So many here are so happy that your heart is opening. They – WE – love you so much and see you walk a little further down the path of loving yourself. Giving you the love you desire.
There is such a thing as “non-attachment” [Buddhist philosophy], yes, but it is not non-attachment to love. For… as we’ve said: LOVE IS ALL THERE IS! That is the attachment. To love. And Love will not let go of you. No matter what. So you can always believe in you and hold on to you. Love yourself – that is your “mission,” your path, what you came here to experience. Each moment of love is a gift to all others of the Universe, including your other lives.
Beautiful, great soul, you ARE love. We love you, all of us here. Love yourself as we do – unconditionally and wholly. You are love.
Forever, Your Guides
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